I did it, couldn't hold myself now I had an excuse.
I hold my breath, ihale and exhaled so my voice could sound calm.
Your voice, your voice! It sounded so peacefull, so smooth. Hearing to it my heart trembled and all these silly things of an teenager passion crashed into my mature soul.
-Bye, it's been good talking to you.

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It's a shame I won't see you soon. And we used to see each other so faster than soon,those first love, those first lovers...

Today, although I haven't dreamed of you, although I was believing I could stop thinking about you...well, I saw one picture, looked really inside your eyes and then I thought about you. I spent the afternoon looking at the telephone, almost called you, at least hear your voice...oh how I wish.
I miss you.
"Today I introduced myself,
To my own feelings,
In silent agony, after all these years,
They spoke to me... after all these years"(Fragile Dreams/Anathema)

Gosh, I'm so old to write these things!

Not a princess day

Today, as I was going up the stairs, I realized how I am a lone wolf .Always lone, going from one side to other, going to bed and waking up. Days would go into the silence if there wasn't the noise from the street, or the music from my computer.
And what concerns me most is how much I desire it. Do I? oh, yeas I do...not so much, 'cause at the same time I'm always dreaming about someone by my side. Well, maybe not for a long time, just enough to feed my needs of being held, kissed, and whatever comes, enough to feel...well...that's the main subject here..feel this fuck weird, but necessary thing: love, which doesn't have to be eternal, although even Carcass agree that there is no love lost.
The thing is, today I've found out that I'm a lone wolf.
Still I have my needs, my desires I am a lone wolf. So I'm going to keep fallowing my unknown way, and if I find you my love(s), I'll take you, I'll feed you, as you will do with me.But I'll be gone as soon the full moon disappear.(wouldn't you?)
Do not take me as a person who don't have feelings, I do, and I know that somehow something will always be alive, as I know that great love histories are fated to the failure,'cause "Babe, baby, baby, I'm gonna leave you...I can hear it calling me the way it used to do".
I aint no rockstar, I aint no whore, it is just that
today I realized, today I woke up feeling I'm a lone wolf...as I was going up the stairs...

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Funny, all these time I wanted to creat a blog, it semed that I had a lot to say, but now...Now, nothing comes to my mind.